Which Path?

Last night...

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 05:25:13 GMT

I'm seriously kicking myself for waiting for so long...

That was...

Damn.

..um.. what?

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 20:03:33 GMT

I cant seem to stop myself from talking lately. I feel like Sora, always chattering away.

Anyway, I havent updated this thing in a while so here goes:

Work has been driving my life. Every day its been the following: Get up, wake SORA up, go to school, go to work, go home, drag Sora to bed, and sleep. Its been getting kinda tiring, so, I'm cutting back on work. Also, it'd be nice to see my best friend outside of waking up in the morning and going to sleep at night. Its not making the whole I've been wanting to screw him thing any easier.

shit. I did NOT just say that.

Maybe I shouldnt have updated afterall.

Getting used to it

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 17:06:46 GMT

I havent transferred to Sora's school... not yet anyway. I really like the curriculum in my school a lot better, but then again I'm missing out on my best friend. I'll think about it more... who knows, maybe for the last half of the year, I'll transfer.

I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping. I'm getting nightmares, and sometimes they get so bad I can hardly breathe. Also, Sora's been going through those.... moods lately. All I have to say is: AXEL. CANT YOU KEEP YOUR HANDS TO YOURSELF FOR AT LEAST TWO GODDAMNED SECONDS??!!

Not that its completely terrible... its just... damn... he looks so hot sometimes so turned on like that, and I dont want to take advantage of him... I'd kinda like to get him to that point myself.
This whole Roxas thing is complicated, because I want to. I want to SO bad.. but I keep reminding myself that Sora acts that way because somewhere Axel and Roxas are getting hot and heavy. I dont know if I'd be happy with myself if I just...

...I got homework to do.

School

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 07:43:04 GMT

School started up again, and I have to commute. Not that I'm complaining, its been pretty cool living with Sora (besides, work is here). So I get up real early, go on a run, and go to school. If anything, at least I'm still keeping my activity up. I'd hate to be lying around all the time.

On my last year of school too. I guess I need to start thinking of what I want to do. I kinda have to wonder if Ares will assign me a job once I graduate... hm..

Moving

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 18:25:29 GMT

Looks like I'm moving in with Sora. I mean, its not going to be that bad commuting to school. If the trains shut down... then I guess I'll just have to re-learn how to use the portals into darkness. I'll be closer to work too.

Besides... It'll be nice being close to him.

We're still good to go fishing sometime, right Vahn?

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I feel a little guilty doing this, and getting closer to Sora because of Kairi... but... if Sora isnt interested in her, theres no point in it. I mean... how could I reject Sora because of Kairi if Sora doesnt want her. All this time, I thought that they were going to end up being together, and I would be on the sidelines watching over them. I must've really been an idiot not to see that I was wanted.
And.... sleeping together. I mean.. in the normal sense me and Sora's done it before... but I know what he means by that. We.. havent even kissed yet and he's already thinking about it... ~~who the hell am I kidding, so am I~~
..I guess we'll just see how things go. I dont really have anything holding me back other than myself. If I feel like it... I'm going for it
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How the hell...

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 17:09:14 GMT

...
How the hell did this happen?
I feel like sleeping the day away... or I need to go for a run. A real nice long run..

[Private]

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 21:43:59 GMT

..So. My mind's been all kinds of a mess right now. I stood up for Sora, told the guy to back off...

And he told me that he was sorry... for trying to pickup my boyfriend.

I-It doesnt matter now, right? It doesnt matter if this guy thinks me and Sora are dating... as long as he leaves him alone, right?

..But now Sora wants to know what happened, and I've been so thrown by the whole thing, I've been having trouble telling him.

*sigh*
Fine. Maybe I should tell him.

Its... not a big deal.

...

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 00:29:48 GMT

I came back from Sora's school.

I found the guy, and I didnt punch him.
I grabbed him by the collar and hit him against the lockers.
I told him to leave Sora alone... that he wasnt interested and to lay off.

...then he apologized, and said something that really made me want to punch him...

..but...

I didnt.

...Sora.. he's..

He's not going to bother you anymore.

Back...

Mon, 28 May 2007 19:25:22 GMT

I feel like I finally woke up...

It was weird. Last thing I remember is I turned back into a guy after that weird thing that everyone was changing genders... and I was on my way to school and everything got dark. I'm guessing I passed out or something, someone must've found me because when I woke up I was in the hospital.

I dont know what happened to me, but... I'm alright now. The doctors didnt tell me what happened, but... for a while there I was in the darkness. I remembered that feeling... but I dont get it. Why now? Why here..?

I hope everyone is ok...what did I miss?

I just hope homework didnt pile up. Damn...

Man...

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 07:24:52 GMT

Alright, I was so not feeling being a girl. That sucked. No other way of putting it.

Everything looks like its back to normal. I really hope that doesnt happen again.

Thunderstorms

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 15:09:04 GMT

I guess we dont have school for a while... the weather is pretty messed up.

...Sora, are you doing alright?

Hearts

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 10:09:45 GMT

Oh man, Valentines Day is this week? Totally looked over it. In the end, its not that big a deal... I never really liked the holiday much anyway...
I mean, its nice to know that your friends care and all, and the candy is pretty sweet... Heh... really, it sounds more like Sora's kind of holiday than mine.

Update

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 07:36:37 GMT

It took a while for me to figure out... but I got my taxes done.

Work has been pretty slow the past couple of days... Cass has been keeping me company and entertaining me with her wild stories about Greece. We've been talking about getting together to see a movie for a while now...
Hey Cass, you want to go looking for a video thursday night?

I'm still looking for a better job... one where I can run around town and move a lot. Something athletic or something, I dont know... heh... I guess I can always spar with Cass in the store when it gets really slow, but we'd have to make sure we clear the floor.

School has been normal. We've been getting a lot of homework lately, but I'm usually really good when it comes to keeping up with things. I do get kinda bored sitting in a desk all day.

This blitzball thing sounds awesome... I really do want to help out on getting it set up.

...??

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 02:07:12 GMT

I figured I should probably update this thing.

School started again and everyone's finally acting normal. We're actually being assigned homework again. So far, I still think its all too easy for me. I wonder what Ares is going to do if we graduate... I only assume they assign us jobs or something.

Work hasn't been too bad. Cassandra's such a ditz... it's funny. It makes working retail actually kind of enjoyable. Of course... I always have to explain everything to her, but at least she's learning stuff. I think.
We still need to do that movie thing.

And... I've been kind of confused lately. Sora... what was up with that other night?

Between school, work, and all that, I've been trying to keep up with my training. I really wished that Goth Topic gave me more chances to move around and be athletic.. but no. I end up standing there all night. So, I've been training myself every now and then, and running in the mornings before school... and I'm starting to wish I had more time to do those kinds of things. Homework's never a problem... I finish it really fast (I always have). I guess I need to find a way to manage my time better.

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 14:40:56 GMT

...

um. Sora...?

Sora. Here!

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 09:06:18 GMT

Sora's here!

I have to admit, I'm a little worried about whats going on over at our world that caused us to end up here... I'm worried about Kairi and the others... but... is it bad to be happy that Sora is here? I mean... with Sora being back home, I'd think everything is safe over there, but now that he's here I dont know whether to be concerned or glad...

Hm

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 18:52:29 GMT

I'm tired of working odd jobs. I want to actually have a job. In the end, it doesnt matter where it is-- I'll find my way over to wherever I need to go.

The ball was kind of lame, but I got to meet up with Baralai again since the whole rat incident. He seems to be a really cool guy.

Since school's been on break, other than odd jobs, I have been having trouble finding things to do. I've been running around town really, and after a while I started looking at the other districts. I think at this point, I pretty much know where everything is. It's kind of nice, but at the same time-- I ran out of things to do. I guess there's nothing else other than sparring, or I can actually go out and bother meeting other people in my area.

Seriously though. This place is pissing me off. I miss the island... Sora and Kairi. It's annoying, since I really shouldnt miss anything. I've been apart from them for a long time before, and in the end I guess I dont deserve to miss anything. Still... it sucks. I hate being in darkness like this.

And now, I cant seem to shut up about anything! It's REALLY cramping my style.

Making a trap.

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 19:48:31 GMT

I've been having strange dreams lately, but other than that everything has been good.
I noticed that it looks like Roxas joined our class the other day. This kind of worries me. Because he's here, does that mean that Sora's sleeping again? Can't be... I remember everything about Sora, so the memory of him hasn't faded... at least not yet. It's very weird. I didnt think that Nobodies would disappear and reappear like that...

Which concerns me even more.

Well, I'm off to go get rid of some of these metal rats. What a bother. Maybe someone should make a trap for them. I'll go look for supplies and see what I can make.

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 17:26:52 GMT

I'm starting to feel back to normal. I think when I arrived here I was kind of shooken up a bit. I really am curious about this place... I wonder what this is all about.
Hey Vahn, are you still up to hanging out after school?

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 00:01:21 GMT

So... I guess its too much to ask for me to finally be home again.

I really should watch out what I wish for. It seems wanting to explore new worlds has really come back to haunt me. I wonder if Sora and Kairi are still on the island.

It's just not fair.
... and they have me going to school here?

UPDATE
I determined that I can't dwell on the bad. If I have to be here (which it seems like I do), I'll just make the best of it. Maybe I'll check around the district I ended up in... if things go well I can probably find a way to prepare for the worst.